Happy New Year People! :) hehe, last year has been a blast but i'm sure this year will be as awesome as last years! :)
Anyway, having to be at my churchs watchnight service last night was pretty different from the others and special in a way. Having to move on from that year was a pretty hard thing to do but I guess the church really grew closer that year and yeah, the youths did too and also the senior citizens. :) I guess God really spoke to everyone of us in a very special way and that is love. "Gods cradle of love for a strong society?" I hope i got that right. haha, I'm trully amazed at what God did and has done for me throughout the whole year. He really showed me what love means and one of it is making sacrifices for the ones you love. For me, having to take the risk and setting aside whats best for God and not for myself is really something that i will always remember to do. God really comforts me and yeah, throughout the experience in having to do NOJ, i found out that God was always there for me, through my ups and downs and also when i'm trying to face my fears of having stage-fright. God has always been my handkerchief in times of need. Nothing can compare to the love God has shown me and blessed me with.
When i was at youth camp last year, i wished that it would be a total blast, and it did happen, but way way way better. :) and it did continue during caroling and the other days after that. I guess my highlight of the year was almost everything. hahaha. *sorry for being greedy here but Everyday seems to be the best day of my life* :) Without God, i will never have become the person i am today. Without him, i will have never been able to move on. Without him, it will always be me, myself and I. Looking back, i am thankful for everything he blessed me with. Good school, a home, my parents, family and friends, being a Christian, having to live in a good country where it is natural phenomena-free and also that we can also speak freely and the list goes on. Yeah, i will never have thought of all the wonderful things he has given me back then without getting close to him, but i'm glad that i did.
Mhmmm...having a special relationship with God and also having to spend time with him is a real blessing. Tho at times we think seeking God is hard, but actually it's not. He is always omni-present. I like sharing my problems with God and that i can hear him telling me that everything is gonna be okay. He is wonderfully made and i'm happy to be made in his image. :) You might think i'm being silly here, but everytime when i shed a tear, it rains. Well, most of the time, when i do, but when it does, i always think of it as God is crying because I am. In a way, it tells me that God feels my pain and that he understands how i feel and that he doesn't want me to cry no more because he will help me to move on. :)
God is a patient and loving God. This year, i feel the strong change in me. I have gotten closer to people, i learn to care and listen to others more, i learn to listen to him during worship sessions and in prayers, through the things around me, through people, through experiences, through non-christian songs and also my thoughts. People say i am an insider, but when at times, i do feel like an outsider too because sometimes i don't fit in. But things have changed now and yeah, God has helped me and showed me that i am part of his life and in others too.
Thank you God for that very special year! This year, i hope and pray that i will become even more and more closer to you God and that i will be able to find time to spend time with you eventho i may be busy studying for SPM. Thank you God for everything. Amen. :)
