R.A.N.D.O.M.N.E.S.S. ???

I feel sorta left out in school. School has been sort of a nightmare to me. :( I just don't feel comfortable. It's likeee....i can't be myself there and yeah, the people around me sorta gives me the chills. I don't understand why? Why do i always get nervous in front of crowds or popular people in my form? Should i wear a mask to make me feel much much better? hiding behind it everyday? trying hard not to embarrass myself? I don't like that feeling. I feel like i'm an outsider. I guess i'm not ready to be a senior in school.

Hmmm...I just don't understand whats the difference between being popular in school and just being a normal student? Does popularity really mean alot to people nowadays? Oh wait! They do. For example: *People from my school* I'm not trying to say that being popular is a bad thing, but sometimes it makes other people feel bad about themselves and yeah, it does hurt. I'm not saying that the person hurting is me tho, but other people whom i've noticed in school too. The popular kids in school, well, we had this election thing and yeah, un-popular students just don't get the chance to get elected or voted. Hmmm...i guess the populars should give other people a chance, and not get so self-centered. Why? Why get so much attention for? I just don't understand whats so nice about being one of the popular ones. Being normal and who you are is whats AWESOME i tell you. :)

Well, a tip for the ones who are popular or wants to be one, please just be yourself and make others feel good about themselves too. Don't just stick to your own popular buddies, but also the ones around you. They are your buddies too you know. Get to know them and i can tell you that they won't hate you for being someone popular. Be popular around people you love and not for the sake of yourself. Nothing good is coming out from that anyway. Popular is just a word and it's not lasting, so why not make a change now. Start caring for people more and not for yourself. I can say for myself that i don't wanna be popular. Being normal is enough for me. :) Well, i don't know about you but this are just my random thoughts. Thanks for reading. :)

-writtenwithlove-larissa-

Happy New Year People! :) hehe, last year has been a blast but i'm sure this year will be as awesome as last years! :)

Anyway, having to be at my churchs watchnight service last night was pretty different from the others and special in a way. Having to move on from that year was a pretty hard thing to do but I guess the church really grew closer that year and yeah, the youths did too and also the senior citizens. :) I guess God really spoke to everyone of us in a very special way and that is love. "Gods cradle of love for a strong society?" I hope i got that right. haha, I'm trully amazed at what God did and has done for me throughout the whole year. He really showed me what love means and one of it is making sacrifices for the ones you love. For me, having to take the risk and setting aside whats best for God and not for myself is really something that i will always remember to do. God really comforts me and yeah, throughout the experience in having to do NOJ, i found out that God was always there for me, through my ups and downs and also when i'm trying to face my fears of having stage-fright. God has always been my handkerchief in times of need. Nothing can compare to the love God has shown me and blessed me with.

When i was at youth camp last year, i wished that it would be a total blast, and it did happen, but way way way better. :) and it did continue during caroling and the other days after that. I guess my highlight of the year was almost everything. hahaha. *sorry for being greedy here but Everyday seems to be the best day of my life* :) Without God, i will never have become the person i am today. Without him, i will have never been able to move on. Without him, it will always be me, myself and I. Looking back, i am thankful for everything he blessed me with. Good school, a home, my parents, family and friends, being a Christian, having to live in a good country where it is natural phenomena-free and also that we can also speak freely and the list goes on. Yeah, i will never have thought of all the wonderful things he has given me back then without getting close to him, but i'm glad that i did.

Mhmmm...having a special relationship with God and also having to spend time with him is a real blessing. Tho at times we think seeking God is hard, but actually it's not. He is always omni-present. I like sharing my problems with God and that i can hear him telling me that everything is gonna be okay. He is wonderfully made and i'm happy to be made in his image. :) You might think i'm being silly here, but everytime when i shed a tear, it rains. Well, most of the time, when i do, but when it does, i always think of it as God is crying because I am. In a way, it tells me that God feels my pain and that he understands how i feel and that he doesn't want me to cry no more because he will help me to move on. :)

God is a patient and loving God. This year, i feel the strong change in me. I have gotten closer to people, i learn to care and listen to others more, i learn to listen to him during worship sessions and in prayers, through the things around me, through people, through experiences, through non-christian songs and also my thoughts. People say i am an insider, but when at times, i do feel like an outsider too because sometimes i don't fit in. But things have changed now and yeah, God has helped me and showed me that i am part of his life and in others too.

Thank you God for that very special year! This year, i hope and pray that i will become even more and more closer to you God and that i will be able to find time to spend time with you eventho i may be busy studying for SPM. Thank you God for everything. Amen. :)

GLEE - "Forget You" Full Performance feat. Gwyneth Paltrow!

I was just thinking the same thing. :) Forget youuuuu...

Glee Marry You Full Video HQ

i think i wanna marry you. :D

I MISS YOU~!

Love is being stupid together

"A part of you has grown in me. And so you see, it's you and me together forever and never apart, maybe in distance, but never in heart."

"Falling in love with someone isn't always going to be easy... Anger... tears... laughter.. It's when you want to be together despite it all. That's when you truly love another. I'm sure of it."

"A year, ten years from now, I'll remember this; not why, only that we were here like this, together."

“Two lives, two hearts joined together in friendship united forever in love.”

“Coming together is a beginning. Keeping together is progress. Working together is success.”

But...

Time is flying, never to return.

For those who are hurting, for those who are sick and for those whom i love, I give you all HUGGGSSS and know that God is there for you.

RANDOM-NESSS!

Father God, teach me how to love others just the way you do. Help me to accept them for who they are. Father God, what can i do to keep them from hurting? From being hurt by others and for hurting themself. What can i do to reach out to them? Help me also to love and accept myself for who i am before loving others Father God. I pray for those who are hurting, help them to remember you and know that you are with them God, at all times. Help them to share their deepest thoughts with you and know that everything is gonna be alright. Help me to be their handkerchief in times of need too Father God, just as how you are mine when i shed a tear or is feeling useless at times. Thank you for all the times you are with me, in times of need or not, you are always there. Thank you for changing my life and for who I am today. I pray that i can help make a change in other peoples life too Father God.

-writtenwithlove-larissa :)

Just my thoughts.

There are just somethings that people don't know about me. I guess i can never be a person who is really open at everything. At times, i just don't understand what guys/girls are thinking. I don't blame the person who tells me something i might not want to hear and after that asks me if i'm jealous or not, but i blame myself because i don't really know what i want. I already moved on but i guess some people might still think that i'm still the same. Am i just hurting myself? I don't know. Dear God, i pray that you will help me to be a patient person. Help me to focus on you, and not the past. I believe that you have changed me and there's no way i am going back to my old self. Help me to move forward and remember that you are my handkerchief in times of need.

~writtenwithlove-larissa :)

Hillsong - All for Love

Thank you for your love Father God.

LOVE THAT CHANGED US ALL!

Sadly, YouthCamp 2010 is over, but yet our friendship, love and care for others and also our deepest and closest times spent with God for the past 4 days will always remain in our hearts and will continue to grow, grow and grow.

This years camp really showed me something special. God really spoke to us all by showing his love towards us. His presence was very much with us all throughout camp and every single day. I saw how everyone really changed alot in a better way and yes, we all felt really comfortable with each other. I have to say, i really really do miss camp this much. I miss everything that made it feel like i was in a dream. A really sweet dream. :)

Every sharing, every thought, every lesson, every person, every hug, every smile, every laugh, every sillyness, every peacefulness and every sweet memory will remain in my heart. But most of all, i will always remember to put God as the center of my life and in whatever i do. Thank you God for listening to our prayers. Thank you for sending Jesus to die on the cross for us. Thank you for showing us your love. Thank you for calming the storm in me and for always being with me and also all of us. Thank you for your amazing sacrifice and love that changed us all.

I pray that eventhough we are no more in youth camp, but we will still continue to bring praises to your name, put you first in our life, and do the best we can in everything we do for you Father God. I pray that the friendships made will last a lifetime and that we will continue to grow more in love with you day by day. Help us too to prove our love for you, that whatever we preach and say will be done with actions. Actions that will be pleasing to your name and that will to ourselves.

Continue to show us your love Father God because i know you will. Thank you for always being there for me. Thank you for being the shoulder for me to lean and cry on. Thank you for being my handkerchief that always wipes away the tears i shed yesterday, today and forever. Thank you for the many blessings and times spent with you. Thank you for changing me into the person i am today. Thank you for shaping me in my mothers womb and also for planning the days ahead of me. Thank you for being with me in my ups and downs. Thank you for knowing me even before i was born. Thank you too for loving me for who i am and also for forgiving more than i can count. Thank you God, for everything. Continue to help me seek you Father God in my everyday life. Amen.

ps: Sorry if i keep repeating everything all over and over again. :) Anderson, i believe you for saying that this camp is going to be a blast. You are an awesome frienemy and also the best teacher of my year! :)

~writtenwithlove-larissa~ :)

Justin Bieber - Pray

Justin Bieber's Awesome! :)

SPEAK UP!

As much as i dislike seeing kids or women being abused, babies being killed because of stupid humans who don't take responsibility for their wrong doings and immature thinking, and also how the world is turning into something monsterious that God didn't create it to be, i too have to say that i dislike seeing senior citizens out there in the world doing labour jobs and also having to help clean offices or clean toilets and stuff.

That very first day, when i was working, i came across this poh poh, who comes every Monday to the office just to clean the toilets, vacuums the carpetted floor, throws rubbish and also wipes the table and glasses. How i dislike seeing senior citizens doing jobs like these. I know you do too. Aren't they suppose to be taken care of by their own children? They should be doing things like taking care of their grandchildren or resting or socializing with other senior citizens, not labour jobs. People just don't get it nowadays do they? Not to mention, early the next morning, I met the poh poh twice in the morning. I was eating breakfast in the morning with my mom in state and i saw her walking by. As she sat down with another poh poh, talking and all, i was a little happy watching them both. Yes, that is what they should be doing i told myself. Mom and I smiled and greeted them both as we walked to our car. I don't think she remembers me tho but that's okay. :)

Later that morning, i left with Aunty Winnie to the office and came upon the same poh poh again. This time, i saw her sitting at the bus stop waiting for the bus. I thought to myself, does she do that everyday? Does she go to other places to do it too? Where are her children? How come she is doing this? If she wants to do it, why doesn't her children stop her or even bother to drive her to the office or something? What humans are turning into nowadays? MONSTERS! How sad it is to see things like this. Really upsetting.

What do i plan to do about this when i grow up?

I really admire how South Korean treats Senior Citizens by building a place for them, just them. And i plan to do the same. I plan to build a place for senior citizens to enjoy. To be taken of. To be able to socialize and not do labour work and also to learn more about God. A peaceful place to dance, exercise, sing praises to God and just RELAX. :) I encourage you, and whoever who is reading this, please treat senior citizens well. For every little thing you do, you are doing it for God, the senior citizens and yourself. Put action to it and not just agree with what i'm saying. You can start by helping the senior citizens in church. You can easily help by getting them food after services, ask what do they want to eat or drink, help guide them to a place to sit or to their friends, help them to the car or anything else you can help with. You can also help the senior citizens home too. I think it's a very nice and warm thing to do to show our appreciation and how much we care about them. You can also start by taking care of your grandparents. Start small, don't rush. :) A little help goes a long way and i very much appreciate what you people are doing. Thank you all for reading, God bless. :)

-writtenwithlove-larissa :)

This lyrics means alot.
Check it out. :)

Before the world began,
you were on his mind,
and every tear you cry,
is precious in his eyes,
because of his GREAT LOVE,
he GAVE his only son,
everything was done so you an I would come.

Nothing you can do,
could make him love you more,
and nothing that you've done,
could make him close the door,
because of his great love,
he gave his only son,
everything was done so you and i would come.

Come to the father,
though your gift is small,
broken hearts, broken lives,
he will take them all,
the power of the word,
the power of his blood,
everything was done,
so you would come.

Jason Derulo - What If (OFFICIAL)

What If...?

~Jason Derulo~

What have i been doing?

Have been working at Aunty Winnie's office for about almost 5 days *including tomorrow*. I'm pretty much exhausted by carrying heavy boxes filled with files all day and also keying all the numbers into the comp. IT'S HARD LABOUR! :'( Luckily I'm not going back there after tomorrow. Phewww... *breathes out* but it's still gonna be a long day because practices for NOJ is BACK! Wheeee, am excited because that is where the FUN BEGINS! ;) I'm pretty upset Bue and PJ can't make it tho. Bue is not feeling well lately and PJ is all caught up in his basketball tournament. Please pray for both of them. For their health and safety. Thank you. :) And hopefully that they will be joining us for youth this Sat, Church on Sunday and also NOJ practice next week. Would be happy if we could all come as a family. :)

Hmmm...my shoulders are aching. I think i'm gonna have muscles. :( *which is not a good thing for us girls* :'( I have a few small tiny cuts on my hand and me bones are aching so badly. :/

Well, one thing about work tho, i didn't know that there are that many files in a office. :O Goshhh, mountains and mountains of them. :/ I've counted. I did....about 90+ boxes all together if i have not mistaken. PRETTY CRUAZZYYY HUH? Well, now i know that working is hard. It's a tough job! It's not fun when you have piles and piles of files to do. Appreciate for what we teenagers have now. All we have to do now is just study, take exams and meet new friends. :)but above all that, i think it is also a wonderful experience to be living in the life of work because it's actually my first time working and to be honest, I did have fun working with people elder than me and yes, i didn't know too that lawyers could be having as much fun as we do besides going to courts, looking through files and having to meet up with clients and stuff. They still are able to joke around, torture youngsters to do hard labour and also laugh at little tiny things happening around them. I guess having to be the youngest teen there, i was able to learn more from them and also to learn how working life is hard and that it's not easy to earn your own money. I guess being able to work with people helps you to get to know other people more. :) I also got to learn how to earn my own money and that i don't have to count of my parents now that i know how to be responsible and independent too. :) So there is always the good and the bad behind everything. :) Open your eyes and see what God has blessed you with because i know that he does everything for the best for us and i also do encourage us youngsters to work because as far as i can see it, many are doing it now. :) Learn from the best, it's okay if you make mistakes because no one is perfect. :)

I saw you smile today. :)

*Dedicated to someone. Wish you are reading this*

When God see's your face, there's not a thing that he would change, cause he loves you, just the way you are. And when you smile, he always stops and stares for a while, cause you are his and he loves you, just the way you are. :)

-writtenwithlove-larissa :)

I might say that i don't care but i still do miss you!

To be honest, i think i'm gonna be okay. You don't get me all confused and upset no more. No more tears, no more thinking about you and definitely no more BIG WAVES CRASHING DOWN IN ME! And i guess things happen for a reason right? Because God is in control and there's no way i can change things. Like i told you before, I really want to fix our relationship, i really do. You know you mean alot to me. You know you are my best guy friend. What did i ever do to you to make you do this?

I may say that i don't care about you no more, but deep down inside, i still do. You just don't know that but if thats what you want, then i won't do nothing no more.

But if you still need me, i will be there for you okay. :) *if this helps*

Now i'm just gonna let you and me cool down before talking to you again okay? Hope you will better after that cause i miss you.

-writtenwithlove-larissa :)

Hey people! Yes, i mean YOU! Caroling is on the way! Aren't you excited??! Well, i know i am! :D IT's GONNA BE A BLAST THIS CHRISTMAS and it's not long after youth camp! I know, i know, it's early to be saying this! NO, WAIT! NO IT'S NOT! We need to practice too you know! So come on, get up on your feet and move *not now, i meant tomorrow*. Heee...we got a few songs to sing and also lots of practices to be done! Our first practice will be tomorrow *means Saturday* right after youth class. Do come yeah! Heee...i tell you it's gonna be GREATTT! *triple "T's" means alot. And *points* YOUUU, definitely won't want to miss it! :) so remember to tell your parents NOT to come at 5.30 but 6.45 OKAY! :) and yes, if you want to, pick up the phone and call your youth teacher and say "yes, i'll be there!" :) I'm sure they will be very happy to hear that. :) Okay, see you buddies tomorrow yeah! Be there!

SERIOUSLY! NO KIDDING! ;)

-writtenwithlove-larissa :)

Chow Kah Hon: Fun! :D

Haha, what can i talk about fun? i don't know actually. I guess, if i want to have fun, i would like going skiing, parachuting, paragliding, banana boating, not bungy jumping of course! ermmm, skytrek again! :D yeah, that was fun. haha. yes, it would be nice to be able to do all those stuff. :) hehe. but it's pretty pricey huh? :(

Well, what do you think about fun? I think hanging out with friends and family is fun too. Going to camps, doing silly stuff or just being silly, having a blast joking around making funny jokes and all. haha. Those are fun too. :) Fun can be anywhere la right? It doesn't have to be something really BIGGGG to be called fun. :) playing with your little brother is fun too, when you don't fight. :) heeee...so yeah, i don't know what you want me to write about, but here's F.U.N! :D hehe.

-writtenwithlove-larissa :)

Casandra yong: Is it necessary for women to do households?

Well, it is actually a woman's job tho. I mean, guys or a husband are suppose to go out and do the tough jobs while us women are suppose to stay at home and babysit, clean the house, cook dinner and wait for the husband to come home. hehe. ohhh, and yes ching, talk on the phone with friends too if that helps. :P

mhmmm...but nowadays the world is changing so i think guys will be able to do household too. :) And yes, maybe this time the wife will be the one going out to work and the husband stay at home to babysit and stuff. Vice versa. :) hahah, and i know, guys will be like, goshhh, you're talking crap and all. Too bad, don't believe la. There are guys who do this okay. They are called MAN! :D

Girls go for this type wan lorr. hahah, because they are neat and that women think that they are really fortunate to have someone like them because they know that they can count on him to take care of them and also their family. :) heeee.... *swoons* sooo, there's no such thing as a no. Please la, you won't look gay okay if that's what some guys are thinking. ;)

-writtenwithlove-larissa :)